“I don’t know HOW you do it – I don’t have the PATIENCE to homeschool…” I laugh inside every time someone says that to me, and want to yell “NEITHER DO I!!!!” Neither do I have the energy and strength to be a church planting pastor’s wife, or a mother of five!!
it’s just not there.
I wish people could see the times that I lock myself in the bathroom. The times I walk out the back door and count to ten. The times that I get so frustrated that I break down in tears. The times I let my kids watch an episode on Netflix so I can get a 20 minute nap.
I am real.
I am NOT a supermom.
I am a human.
I make mistakes.
I say I’m sorry – ALOT.
I am a sinner.
THIS is where the wondrous, incredible mercy and grace of God comes into play in my life and gently leads me day by day. A passage that I love is Ps 103:13-14, “Like as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear him. For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.” He KNOWS that I will make mistakes, He KNOWS that I will get weary, He KNOWS that I will fail, and yet in His love, as only a Father can do, He picks me up and gives me the strength to continue.
My Heavenly Father has unimaginable compassion for me. Lamentations 3:22 puts it this way “It is of the Lord ‘s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness” I seem to use up each day’s supply, so I am grateful that they are new every morning!